8 years of wandering

by CB
(Texas)

I left the ministry at a time of great turmoil at our church. I was a naive casualty of an elder-staff power struggle. I resigned because I was burned out, having marriage and money problems, and the stress of being at odds with my church family was too much. I was deeply depressed and just needed rest and escape.

The thing is that was 8 years ago, and though i have gone through a lot more grief and loss since (niece's suicide, foreclosure on house, near divorce, daughter's teen pregnancy) the grief i cannot resolve... the thing that hurts the most, is this resignation. I cannot seem to move on. 8 years later and I have lost all direction in my life. I feel hopeless....