Am I guilty if I don't feel strong enough to move internationally for missions?

by Nicole
(Australia)

Hi, my husband is an evangelist and church planter. We have been married 22 years and moved into 6 countries and 38 times moved house, sometimes for ministry, sometimes for work or business. I have a 6 and 12 year old. They hate moving. I promised my husband before we got married that I will travel with him for the Gospel. I am now 41 and my health has suffered a lot. I can't hold a job because I am too weak, I can look after the family and that's about it. I am also recovering from a burnout from a very intense mission work overseas. He found a job teaching English in China where he can also evangelize and plant churches and would like me to either let him go there for 2 months or move with the family there. I can't even fathom the thought of an international move now. Also, I am not sure I could handle living somewhere where few people spoke English, same for my children. I feel weak in my spirit, mind, emotions and body. My husband seems to feel that he can't do anything because of me. I am willing to say yes to him being 2 months away from the family, though none of us like it. I feel guilty sometimes that maybe I am holding my husband back. Other times I feel I am not considerate towards his dreams because I want the safety and security of living in Australia, simply because I feel I can't bear doing another international move with my level of strength.

Click here to post comments

Join in and write your own page! It's easy to do. How? Simply click here to return to Pastor's Forum.

Recent Articles

  1. Struggling for sermon ideas...

    Oct 15, 17 03:32 PM

    What to do when you seem to be struggling for sermon ideas? I seem to be going through a dry season in which it is difficult to get a handle on what God

    Read More

  2. Burned out & feeling abandoned

    Oct 15, 17 03:30 PM

    To start with, I know that writing this won’t change the situation. I think that the reason that I did was to ask for your prayers… I’m not really

    Read More

  3. Empty

    Oct 08, 17 03:12 PM

    37 years continuously as a pastor and right now I feel like the biggest failure in the world. I am so depressed that I cannot write about it. God help

    Read More