Losing my Faith (2)

by JayCee
(Florida)

Well, I'm still hanging in there (see previous post Losing my Faith). The church is still dry, so much to the point that my wife hasn't been to a Sunday morning in over a month. It's draining for her too. At the last board meeting I had a letter written out I was going to read asking all the elders to help me pray that God releases me from the board. The meeting ran so long and was so disorganized, by the time it was ending a few of the elders had already left. So I keep adding to my letter. Yesterday as the sermon was being preached I was working on my resignation letter during service. That is how disconnected I am. I think I've lost respect for the pastor. He allows our only full time employee (besides himself) to come and go with no set office hours, specific duties are a blur, and there is NO accountability. Oh by the way, the one full time employee is his wife! I've learned from former employees full time and part time, the pastor kept them accountable for what they did, the hours they must work, etc. Now that his wife is the only full timer left... she gets to 'shadow' his schedule, which like most senior pastors, is a blurrr. She is our worship leader and our music is old-fashioned and out dated. The church is making budget so as long as the bills are being paid I won't get any backing from the board. I plan on leaving the church at the end of the year (I said this in January) if things don't change. But I think I need to immediately get off the board. As a board member I am exposed to the operational disaster that is our church and I'd rather not know about it. This isn't my first church board, I've served for years on different boards and even chaired them. I was anxious to get on this board and help this church turn the corner. I've given up... not going to happen.

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