Losing my religion...

by Lady Rev
(NYS)

OK, so maybe I've not lost my religion. What I have lost the ability to trust key leadership in the small church I serve. And it's all because of one member who's left four other churches because he hasn't gotten his way.

Had a meeting with that individual and the Deacons yesterday. After the meeting, the 1st thing said to me was, "We all want you to stay." You might think that would be affirming, but given what the individual's been doing - not just his attacks on me personally and professionally - they'd understand he's created a spirit of unrest and fractured what had heretofore been a good fellowship. That made me wonder if there had been a flip side to it - as in, was there a question they wanted him to stay and not me?

When I look at the lives of the Deacons, there's not one person on that board who has dealt with conflict in their personal lives - never has and never will happen. You all know what it's like to know the gaping wounds in the life of a parishioner and not be able to offer even a small bandage because they deny there's anything wrong.

So while I'm not surprised they weren't more vocal in defending me, what truly disappoints me is that they aren't standing up for the fellowship and well being of "their church." They don't understand how evil (not a word I use lightly, but it absolutely applies) this man is, and that he's determined to take me out, so to speak, and will destroy the church as he does so. They also don't understand that this isn't going to be fixed and that we'll all end up holding hands and singing Kum Bah Yah around the campfire!

Can anyone out there please help me with what to say to the Deacons at our next meeting so they "get" how serious this is? BTW - I've already decided to resign, but I still care about the congregation. Anyone else had to deal with a clergy killer? I know there are lots of us who have... thanks for any words of wisdom and/or encouragement...

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