Lost my desire for life

by PW
(Minnesota)

My story is too long to say here. I've been in ministry for more than 15 years. I've been abused by the sheep, lived through so much pain in the ministry, which I kept bringing all to my Lord. I lived through two big traumas in Ministry (divisions) and wasted my energy and time, apparently. My heart is wounded and burned out. I never thought I would feel this way. I have forgiven everyone and I constantly search my heart to make sure I keep forgiving. But I've been having thoughts of wishing God would end my life and just take me to heaven. I've also thought of leaving the ministry, since I can not see the fruit for my labor. I feel weak, burned out and hopeless. There is so much more...but...please say a prayer for me. I need God's intervention soon...


PW

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