Old And Tired

My wife just announced to me yesterday that she's thinking of leaving me. She is frustrated with the way I deal with some of the financial problems we've experienced over the last 14 years that I've been in ministry. And the way I deal with other problems, as well.

My son is a convicted felon, though he is finally putting his life back together. My daughter is divorced and living out of state. She refuses to come home. She hates this church and what she thinks it's done to us.

I owe $10,000 in back taxes because the church would not deduct its share of social security contributions until recently.

I tried confiding in an elder in our church once but he spent our entire conversation talking about himself. Occasionally I feel this crush of loneliness, like I have no one to confide in.
There are good and caring people in this church but I have a fear of getting too close or revealing too much. The group of people I'm most comfortable with live in a different town and have no church affiliation.

Though I have a Bible college degree and 14 years of experience, I feel inadequate and unqualified to be a minister.

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