Over my head?
I’m a relatively new Pastor. I’ve only been active in the ministry for 3 years and due to loses in our church, I stepped and grew to fill the voids that were left.
Six months ago, I was promoted to Pastor almost without warning and with no consultation prior to the announcement. The last two months have been especially difficult. My family has had difficulties with this transition and it has greatly impacted my life in nearly every area. Sadly, many of those impacts have been negative. I understand it’s not an easy calling. But so far, it’s been far harder than even my wildest thoughts seemed.
My church is not large. It’s full of good people who love God. They are responsive and seem genuinely interested in our messages. My problem is, I often feel as if I have no help. The previous Pastor abruptly stepped aside out of frustration and told me repeatedly that he would continue to be involved. He is our chief musician as well. The problem is, since I’ve taken over, he sporadically shows up to church and rarely ever seems interested. Most of what he says from the pulpit are complaints about a lack of involvement from other people. I’ve been praying for months for God to give me guidance and direction. Without him, I have no musician, I have no one to help me on the platform, and I have no one to offer me guidance. I’m also my church’s primary Sunday School teacher.
I feel as if I’m in over my head and I’m not sure what to do anymore. Is it wrong of me to wonder if I’m not ready for this or that maybe I’m just not called to Pastor?