I write this because I don't really know where else to go about all of this. I know that these stories are about men and women that have ministered in church's, but I just feel that all those people may be able to help me.
My story is kind of weird. In my younger years, I really didn't attend church that much and eventually stopped. That went on for several years and nothing changed, that was until I became very ill. Once I became better after several months, I talked with some of my aunts and uncles that went to church and they ended up convincing me to go back to church. So I went for the first time and immediately the pastor wanted me to go on an upcoming mission trip with the church's youth. So I did.
Soon after that trip, I continued to try and get more involved in the church's youth and learn more about the bible and about God. The years went by and some more church trips until one day I felt a strange call from inside my heart. I found it strange at first and couldn't describe it. So again, I went back on a mission trip with my church and that's when I realized I wanted to be a pastor. But the part that has always conflicted in me is that I feel that I sin a lot, take the Lord's name in vain, and just do bad things. Even through all of that, I just feel that amazing call to serve God. So what should I do?