(Winnipeg, MB, Canada)
It's my first time visiting this site and I've found it very encouraging that there is help online for people in ministry who need someone who understands. I have only been at my church for 2 1/2 years but the needs are unending and about a month ago I finally was able to admit that I'm burnt out. I have been ignoring it for about as long as I've been working there and I finally had nothing left to give and was able to recognize how depressed and alone I felt in my job. I can't admit to anyone, including my incredibly loyal and loving family, that I have no relationship with God right now. I know the answers, I've been educated for 4 years at Bible School, and I love God... I just don't know Him right now. I can't understand why he's not trying to get me back and I feel powerless to go looking for Him. I am taking time off here and there, am seeing a counselor, taking vitamins, trying to sleep 8-10 hours.... I'm still trying to work up the motivation to exercise. But I still don't feel as though it's all been helping. I read your article on how to deal with burnout but I need to know more. What serious work do I do now? How do I get even a rocky relationship with God back? I don't have anyone I feel I can burden with this kind of honesty and so I sit here, all alone, and wonder 'what now?'.