Who hears the cry of the Pastor's Wife?
I don't have the strength to go into full detail of my story. I can't even articulate what's wrong with me, all I can say is I am tired. I literally "googled" "tired Pastors wives" to see if I could read up on someone else's story to try and make sense of mine. I feel so guilty because my husband truly wants to do what he's doing in the church, however I don't. I don't see anything coming together, I don't feel the presence of Father during services, and I just don't want this anymore. I don't want to tell him how I feel because I don't want to discourage him. I can relate to the woman who said she just wants to sit down and be fed and not have to worry about who is going to show up and who is not. I want to go sit under a Pastor with a thriving congregation with more than just a few people. It's so tough starting from the ground up and it has definitely worn me out physically and spiritually.
I'm not a novice and find it insulting when people insinuate I'm not praying hard enough. Father knows that's so far from the truth. I LOVE my husband and honor the calling on his life. I want to be there for him, but I just don't know if I can do it anymore. I know if I change my membership it will truly hurt our marriage, furthermore I don't think it's the wise thing to do. Please pray for me and everyone else like me. Thank you.
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